Through many doctors visits in the hopes of having the MSC (Many Small Children) we hope to have, the final prescription from my doctor alongside very EXPENSIVE fertility meds was LESS STRESS!
"Really", I responded? "Do you know that I am a teacher of 120 lovely middle schoolers AND a pastor's wife?" To which he responded, "Really Pepper. If you want those MSC, you are going to have to lessen your stress so the percentage of your possibilities for children will increase." How very discouraging to hear that you have slim chances of having the babies you so desperately desire, but with alot of help and encouragement from my husband, many tears & many prayers I am trusting the Lord for the percentage that the doctors say is void from our lives!
The very week following my appointment I was approached by someone at church that asked me if I might consider moving schools? I can only imagine my facial expressions, knowing in my mind what the doctor had just told me. And with that question from her, the Lord began opening up the opportunity for me to interview with another school. That week I approached my principal at the middle school in every attempt to be professional about this possibility & told him that I was considering this opportunity. Interviewed that very week on Thursday. Accepted a position on Friday! I followed with my 30 days notice & started the long awaited change.
It was, despite the quickness in the decisions from day to day, one of the hardest decisions I have ever made. I love my kids at the Middle School. Saying goodbye to them, I knew was going to be one of the hardest things to do. But, I had to decide to take care of my body & my health in order to fulfill dreams that I've had since I was a very little girl.
So after a almost an entire month, my principal gave me the letter that would inform my children that I would be leaving. We gathered them together to break the news. Having all 240 of their eyes looking at me and having no idea what was about to hit them was terrible. We shed tears. We shared germy hugs. And we made it through that terrible Friday. With 3 days left together, I had no idea what to expect, but I was showered with love from my kiddos. I have never received so many gifts. It was like Christmas in October! Flowers, cards, letters smeared with thank yous from students and parents, candy, bible covers, pictures, ornaments, food, lunch..... It was endless. I felt so loved and cared for. I left them with a challenge to love Ms. Vaughan, a first year teacher who had been in kindergarten, with all their might.
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